I look up

I look up as if waiting for an answer, but the clouds don't reply.
I don't expect them to, but I do expect another voice.
A voice that hears not only my voice, but hears my heart.
This voice knows me inside and out and before my heart cries He knows.

I look around me and I feel empty.
What fills my life?
Who fills my mind?
Again I look up to find my answer.
When I look around I am empty.
I find longing in looking around me.
I long for things that I can't fully describe, but they are not mine.
I look up.

I look down.
My head is hung.
My eyes are filled.
My heart cries out.
Those around me do not hear.
I look up.

When I look up I am filled.
I am made whole.
I am loved.
No one can hold me like I am held when I look up.

My life has been crazy lately..... but even in the midst of everything I know that He loves me. :)

More quotes :) with commentary :)

I personally LOVE quotes.... Not sure about the rest of you, but yes I am quote crazy.. :) So here is yet another post about quotes :) Also, please forgive me if I already used some of these.

Diamonds are nothing more than chunks of coal that stuck to their jobs. ~ Malcolm S. Forbes

The distance between insanity and genius is measured only by success.
~ Bruce Feirstein


Yet it is in our idleness, in our dreams, that the submerged truth sometimes comes to the top. ~ Virginia Woolf 
Psychological....


The optimist lives on the peninsula of infinite possibilities; the pessimist is stranded on the island of perpetual indecision.
~ William Arthur Ward

 Individuality is either the mark of genius or the reverse. Mediocrity finds safety in standardization.
~ Frederick E. Crane

Hope is the companion of power, and mother of success; for who so hopes strongly has within him the gift of miracles. ~ Samuel Smiles

A good home must be made, not bought. ~ Joyce Maynard

Failure is only the opportunity to begin again more intelligently. ~ Henry Ford

Managing is like holding a dove in your hand. Squeeze too hard and you kill it, not hard enough and it flies away. ~ Tommy Lasorda


The unfortunate thing about this world is that good habits are so much easier to give up than bad ones. ~ Somerset Maugham

True happiness...is not attained through self-gratification, but through fidelity to a worthy purpose. ~ Helen Keller

Love is when the other person's happiness is more important than your own. ~ H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

 Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it. ~ Bill Cosby

Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.
~ Dale Carnegie

Hope sees the invisible, feels the intangible and achieves the impossible.
~ Anonymous

Reputation is what other people know about you. Honor is what you know about yourself.
~ Lois McMaster Bujold

There is music wherever there is harmony, order, or proportion ~ Thomas Browne

God grant me the courage not to give up what I think is right even though I think it is hopeless. ~ Chester W. Nimitz
The best place to find a helping hand is at the end of your own arm
~ Swedish Proverb... not sure about this one, but I thought it was amusing :)


When a true genius appears in the world, you may know him by this sign, that the dunces are all in confederacy against him. ~ Jonathan Swift ...rofl :D


If you are afraid of your future, you don't have a present ~ James Petersen

Friendship is always a sweet responsibility, never an opportunity. ~ Kahlil Gibran .. if it is a real friendship!


Conquering any difficulty always gives one a secret joy, for it means pushing back a boundary-line. and adding to one's liberty.
~ Henri Frédéric Amiel

Forgiveness is a funny thing. It warms the heart and cools the sting. ~ William Arthur Ward.. sooooo true! :)


Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it. ~ William Arthur Ward

Hold me!

One of my top songs (as of right now :) ) is Hold Me by Jamie Grace
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISgr8SgCYbY (heres a link to the song). It is an amazing song and it talks about how God holds those who are His. At times I confess that I have a hard time. I question God. Where are You in this?? Why did this have to happen?? Last week on the 6th my mom dropped some cans of chicken on my foot COMPLETE ACCIDENT! and it broke the lower bone in my toe in half and left a gash that had to have stitches. I had to go to the ER and I didn't get home till around 2 am, then I still had to go to school the next morning. I had to be on full crutches for the last week and a half and now I am in a boot that is a bit irritating.  Some of my friends are going through tough stuff, and there are other issues in my life that have been going on for awhile that I just can't wait to be resolved. Worst of all I sometimes grow discontent... :/ BUT this song is amazing and is explains how I feel. I just LOVE the way God holds me! He loves me soooo much! I am His, and He is mine and nothing can ever change that. It is hard to comprehend why He would love someone like me, but that just adds to the wonder of Him. I am amazed. I am in love with Him and even when no one else is there to hold me I know that He is. Even with how much I love Him my love is sooooo finite. He loved me enough to die for me! yet, when I get a busted toe I complain?? :/ Rather lame of me... Thank goodness for His grace! The song says that "He takes each and everyday and makes it special in some way" how true! There is ALWAYS something I can rejoice in Him. What an AWESOME God I serve (though I am not the best at serving Him). I LOVE THE WAY HE HOLDS ME! ^_^ <3 <3 <3

Oy vey! :)

Well, finished another semester of college!!! HALLELUJAH! And even better I am DONE taking math classes!! :) It isn't that I am not good at math. I am pretty good at it, I just have never really liked it... :P :) Anyway, I am done with that and soon enough I will be done with my current University and transferring to a new one! Assuming I get my acceptance that is. It is amazing how fast everything has gone by! Just under a year ago I was starting my first term as a college student, and now I will soon be in a classroom (I am studying to get my B.S. Ed. or Bachelors of Science in Education.. or more simply a major in Elementary Education). There is so much to do, so much yet so little time. Time is such a precious thing, and God has made me more aware of it. I often times seem to be looking to much into the future to see what I have now. There are things I long for for my future, but my future is happening right now! It is a weird thought if you have hours to pour into thinking about it, but really your future is going to be made up of the decisions and plans that you make now. I know that that has been said before, but until you start thinking about it, and living it it is just a saying and nothing more. Time is of the essence, but at the say time don't be so overwhelmed with the future and what it hold that you don't hold on to what you have right now. I know that i struggle with this, and thank goodness I serve a loving God who, even though He knows how stupid I am/can be He still loves me and teaches  me. Also though, I have so many friends whom I have talked to recently who just can't wait to be done with things in their lives and I am not talking about being done with math class, things that are much more important. They can't wait to not be single any longer, they can't wait to move away from their parents, they can't wait for.... etc. Fill in your own blank. I love what Corrie-Ten-Boom said when she said "Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God." No one knows for sure what their future holds, life can change in the blink of an eye, and I know this fact all to well. Don't miss the present for the future.

Quotiness 3!

Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer, but we wish we didn't
~Erica Jong

Never fear shadows... that always means there is a light shining somewhere
~Jonathan Santos


A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.
~Walter Winchell


When the game is over, the King and the pawn go into the same box.
~Italian Proverb


There is only one happiness in life, to love and to be loved.
~A bookmark I found at Barnes and Noble :D


Success is walking from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm
~Winston Churchill


Life is not measured by the number of breathes we take, but by the moments that take our breath away
~,,,


Excellence is to do a common thing in an uncommon way
~Booker T. Washington


May you have the hindsight to know where you've been, the foresight to know where you are going, and the insight to know when you have gone to far.
~Irish blessing


Mistakes are painful when they happen,but years later a collection of mistakes is what is called experience.
~Denis Waitley


The difficulty is not so great to die for a friend, as to find a friend worth dying for.
~Homer


Love is not blind-it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less
~Rabbi Julius Gordon


A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, my world.
~Leo Buscaglia


A happy marriage has in it all the pleasures of friendship, all the enjoyments of a sense and a reason, and indeed, all the sweets of life.
~Joseph Addison


Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget.
~...


In true love the smallest distance is too great, and the greatest distance can be bridged.
~Hans Nouwens


The cruelest lies are often told in silence
~Adlai Stevenson


The future is purchased by the present
~Samuel Johnson


Don't grumble that roses have thorns, be thankful that thorns have roses
~...


We have two ears and one tongue so that we would listen more and talk less
~Diogenes


To acquire knowledge, one must study; but to acquire wisdom, one must observe.
~Marilyn vos Savant


Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness.
~Bertrand Russell


The more you are willing to accept responsibility for your actions, the more credibility you will have.
~Brian Koslow


All earthly delights are sweeter in expectation than in enjoyment; but all spiritual pleasures more in fruition than in expectation.
~Francios Fenelon


A joyful heart is the inevitable result of a heart burning with love.
~Mother Teresa 


Everything that is done in the world is done by hope.
~Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.


The first duty of love is to listen
~Paul Tillich


The most efficient way to live reasonably is every morning to make a plan of ones day and every night to examine the results obtained.
~Alexis Carrel


The greatest remedy for anger is delay.
~Seneca


Be clear about your goal, but be flexible about the process of achieving it.
~Brian Tracy


Money is the most envied, but the least enjoyed. Health is the most enjoyed, but the least envied.
~Charles Caleb Colton


It must be borne in mind that the tragedy of life does not lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy of life lies in having no goal to reach.
~Benjamin E. Mays


The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart.
~Elisabeth Foley


Forgive all who have offended you, not for them, but for yourself.
~Harriet Nelson


The size of your success is measured by the strength of your desire; the size of your dream;and how you handle disappointment along the way.
~Robert Kiyosaki


Desire is the starting point of all achievement, not a hope, not a wish, but a keen pulsating desire which transcends everything.
~Napoleon Hill


That is all for now :)

Quotiness 2!!!!!!

So, here is part two... dum dum dum!!!

Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen.
~Winston Churchill

A brave arm makes a short sword long
~ ...

I'm not funny. What I am is brave.
~Lucille Ball

If you think the world will treat you fairly because you're a nice person, then you probably think a bill wont charge you because your a vegetarian :D
~Bill Garrison

Those who are lifting the world upward and onward are those who encourage more than criticize.

~Elizabeth Harrison

There are pools that don't reflect the sky
~Bodie Thoene an excerpt from The Return to Zion

God's greatest pleasure is making miracles from the dust or our despair
~Bodie Thoene

Do not let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do.
~John R. Wooden

Eve was not taken out of Adams head to top him, neither out of his feet to be trampled by him, but out of his side to be equal with him, under his arm to be protected by him, and near his heart to be loved by him.. <3 <3 <3
~Matthew Henry

The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother
~Theodore Hesburgh

In matters of style, swim with the current; in matters of principle, stand like a rock
~Thomas Jefferson

Forgiveness is a promise, not a feeling.
~Jay Adams

We cannot live in the future, but neglecting our current obligations will disqualify us for tomorrows responsibilites.
~Joshua Harris

The path you take with your feet should never contradict the conviction of your heart.
~Joshua Harris


You cannot shake hands with a clenched fist.
~Indira Ghand, 1971

Talking and eloquence are not the same: to speak and to speak well are two things. A fool may talk, but a wise man speaks.
~Heinrich Heine

The height of your accomplishments will equal the depth of your convictions.
~ William F. Scolavino

Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss it you will land among the stars
~Les Brown

Just because someone doesn't love you in the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they've got.
~...

Never fear shadows.. that always means there is a light shining somewhere
~Jonathan Santos

For tonight I shall end with this...

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and sage with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.
~... <3 <3 <3 

Quoty...

I have this hobby I guess you could call it where I collect quotes. If I find a quote I like I write it in my quote book. I just love quotes. So for awhile I have wanted to write a post of different quotes. I am probably going to make it into different segments cause it would take me awhile to write them all down, plus it would be an insanely long post, so here goes round one of quotes!

You, it is you now who must act. If you do nothing, nothing shall be done.
~Elisabeth Elliot    an excerpt from her book No Graven Image

O God fill my soul with so entire a love of you that I may love nothing, but for Your sake and in subordination with Your love. Give me grace to study Your knowledge daily, that the more I know You, the more I may love You. Create in me a zealous obedience to all Your commands, a cheerful patience under all Your chastisements, and a thankful resignation to all Your disposals. Let it be the one business of my life to glorify You by every word of my tongue, by every work on my hand, by professing Your truth, and by engaging all men so far as in my lies, to glorify and love You.
~John Wesley

Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God.
~Corrie-Ten-Boom 

Do not go where the path may lead; go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

God set His standards high so that we wont make the mistake of aiming low. He made them unreachable so that we would never have an excuse to stop growing.
~Alex and Brett Harris    an excerpt from their book Do Hard Things  

I  used to say that somebody ought to do something about that, but then I realized that I was somebody.
~ Lilly Tomlin

God came to afflict the comfortable and comfort the afflicted.
~ don't know

I love you; not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you
~Roy Croft

How wonderful it is that nobody needs to wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.
~Anne Frank    an excerpt from her diary


No man can drag me down so low as to make me hate him
~George Washington Carver


There is no more important work that what you are doing
~George Washington Carver


Our hearts are restless until they rest in God.
~Augustine

Unless we have something worth dying for we've nothing worth living for.
~Francine Rivers     an excerpt from her book series The Mark of the Lion 

I don't care what you've heard impossible is not a word, it's just an excuse to quite trying.
~Jason Sweet    an excerpt from his song Living Room Praise 

Courage is what you're afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared.
~Edward Vernon Rickenbacker

Some have been thought brave because they were afraid to run away.
~Thomas Fuller

It is easy to be brave from a safe distance.
~Aesop

A girl should be so lost in God, that a guy must seek Him in order to find her
~....

If you want to catch the eye of a godly guy, work hard at becoming a godly woman.
~...

Dance with God. He'll let the perfect man step in.
~...

Before he can be your knight in shining armor, he must first put on the armor of God.
~...

Men are like steel. When they lose their temper, they lose their worth.
~Chuck Norris

Since this is getting rather long I suppose this shall be my last quote for the night

Watch your thoughts, they become your words, watch your words, they become your actions, watch your actions, they become your habit's, they become your character, what your character, it becomes your destiny.
~...

Tune in next time for quotiness :)   

 

Eve-il???

Most of us know the history of sin. Sin entered the world when Eve ate of the tree and Adam likewise. (Though technically Eve sinned before then because she told a lie). When talking to different people it is amazing how many will say that it is Eves fault, or "it was that woman" or something to the effect of "I don't think that I would have cursed us all with sin by doing such a stupid thing as eating from a tree." Lets face the facts though.. Everyday we give into temptation, EVERYDAY! We sin everyday. Even the "good things" we do only count for filthy rags. Yet Eve seems to be the name that is almost synonymous with sin. Why should she be held accountable when all of us do as she did? We don't fight sin. We might use the excuse saying that it is in our nature, but if we don't fight temptation then we are doing the same thing as Eve. In some of the studies I have been involved in as of lat,e the topics have been death, life, salvation, and what happens after death
Death: On this topic I hate to inform you all, but... the number one cause of termination is death. We all know that death is a fact of life (rather ironic saying though...). We all must succumb to death. So much more could be said on death, but the basic part is we all die.
Life: In a song by SuperChik they say that "everyone dies, but not everyone lives." Sooooo true! We all die in the end, but how many people truly live?? When I say truly live I mean how many people live for Christ? How many people are actually alive during life?
Salvation: No one comes to the Father, but through Christ. The only way to be saved is through the cross, through the blood that was spilled on our accounts.
What happens after death: Depends on where your treasure is. If your treasure is here on earth then enjoy those treasures while you can because where you are going they will melt and/or burn. If you are among the saved then rejoice and do not be afraid of death. It has no sting. For the saints their treasure is in heaven where nothing can destroy it and no one can take it away, but much more importantly that is where God is.

Contentment

It has only been a couple of weeks since I last posted, but man, it seems like FOREVER!!!! My life is sooo busy crazy.
Yesterday when I was meeting with me mentor (someone much wiser than I :) ) she and I were talking and I was telling her some of what has been going on in my life and she said that things sound like they are pretty crazy for me, but then she asked "Hannah, are you content in where you are?" She made me think for a moment, but then I could honestly answer yes, that I am content. Life is full of ups and downs, and at times it seems like the downs outnumber the ups, but I know that God has plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans for hope and a future. I have struggled before in being content, wondering what contentment really is, and if it is even possible to find while we are here on this earth, but I have discovered that it is possible, and not just for a moment when everything is right. My life isn't horrible, but according to human standards very little in my life has gone "right" as of late.... God has shown me through all of this what it really is to be content. My soul is at rest in Him. For me that is contentment. I have felt it before, but I haven't realized what it really was. My life is on a roller coaster, but I am resting in Him. I KNOW that He loves me. I KNOW that no matter what He is ALWAYS going to be there for me. I KNOW that I will spend eternity with Him. I KNOW that He knows better than I do what is good for me and my life. I can see Him in so many ways. A few times people have asked me why I still smile when things get so rough in my life, and I usually answer with something like " there isn't anything else to do". God has blessed me in so many ways that when things get rough I remember what He has done for me, what He has brought me through and I have to smile knowing that He has plans for me. He love me sooo much! I wish I could convey with words all that my Savior does for me, but words cannot suffice.....

"A Woman's Question" by Lena Lathrop

I found this poem in "I Kissed Dating Goodbye"by Joshua Harris and I thought some of you might enjoy it. AMAZING book btw!!!!


Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy.

You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's sould
Until I shall question thee.

You require mutton shall always be hot,
You socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart by true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you're wanting for sicks and shirts--
I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautfil realm called Home,
And a man that his Maker, God,
Shall look upon as He did on the first
And say: "It is very good."

I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheek one day;
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven of hell 
On the day she is made a bride.

I require all things that are grand and true,
ALl things that a man should be;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot be this, a laundress and a cook
You can hire and little to pay;
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.


Yes, there are things that we females need to work on too, but guys, read this and look at a woman as a treasure to be won. Not something to be used. Win a girl by knowing what is past her face. If you can tell her what you love about her soul, her heart, her brain, then she will be yours. If you just comment on the outside then she will know what your heart is after. Yes, tell her she is beautiful, but tell her what makes her beautiful from the inside out. This is not as easy of a task as telling a girl she is pretty, but spending a life time with someone is not easy. Tell her instead what you hope to still see when she is fifty...

Biologie, pourquoi ne pas vous voir?

Biology, why can't you see??
So, why am I talking about Biology?? (btw the title is in French) Well, for my degree I have to take some Natural Science classes. This semester I am taking two, and one of them happens to be Biology. I am reading the text book right now and I am just amazed (not necessarily in a good way). This text book is biased towards evolution ( big surprise there). Anyway, I was reading along and it is going into how things are a bajillion and one years old, but then it said "close examination of a flower reveals that the parts are far from randomly organized." How does that work??? If everything just exploded then how can they say that something is "far from randomly organized." (In case you haven't already noticed I am on a soap box right now). Then they have the.. audacity to say that DNA are "blueprints" for organisms. If there are blueprints then someone made them right? The last set of blueprints I looked at didn't just evolve in front of me. It took an *intelligent being* to create it. So evolution scientists are saying that everything exploded, yet it all seems to have a plan and a purpose? It astounds me how people think. Evolution doesn't even make sense! There are as many ways of looking at evolution as there are years in evolution, but here is something interesting I have thought about. So, suppose everything did just *randomly* explode into earth. Then humans (or whatever we were then) started coming out of the primeval ooze. These creatures would have to evolve at approximately the same rate and they would have to be sexually compatible in order to reproduce and further evolve! I personally think that believing evolution is harder than believing that God made the world. Even the scientists who are against creationism are saying that things appear as though they didn't just "randomly" come into being. The book of Romans comes to mind right now. If you don't know what it says, then go and read it! :)

My fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, please be praying for me as I may have to choose my battles in these science classes (specifically biology). That I may honor God through the choices that I make and that I would stand strong and have the wisdom to respond about, and defend my faith. Thank you all! :)

A box of memories

Everyone has memories
Some are happy,
Some are sad.
Some we never wish to remember.
There are those we wish we could live over and over again.
Yet, there are some
that belong in a box.
There they can  be put aside.
Perhaps brought out later and gone over,
but in that box they are out of sight,
out of mind,
but though we may be able to put memorabilia in a box
memories can never be contained.
They can be put under lock
under key,
but never contained.
They creep out when you least expect them.
Haunting.
That box of memories.
Things you cannot part with,
yet can't bear to look at.
Memories belong in boxes.
These boxes have locks,
they have keys.
These boxes are the only things that can truly hold memories.
Heart and mind
the only real memory keepers of any kind.


Another random attempt at writing that popped into my head during my science class :)

A random attepmt at writing....

She faked a smile and laughed
Sure that no one around her could guess 
how she was really doing behind that smile.
She had just lost something very precious.
This thing she did not own,
yet she none the less possessed. 
At one time she knew it was hers 
She didn't have to feign a smile.
But like a flower 
her real smile soon faded
for that thing which she had once possessed had faded out of her life.
The fading was slow, but it was also sure.
How fast it did fade.
She didn't expect it
Didn't want it to go away
Yet she continued to feign her smile as it slipped even farther away
taking part of her with it.
All of a sudden she realized it really was gone,
still there,
but no longer possessed by her.
She did not know who possessed it 
if anyone,
but it was gone
and she continued to smile on the outside
while on the inside she felt confused and lost.
Like a flower without a vase. 

Changing the World

Don't we all wish at one time or another that we could change the world??? I know that I do! Just to be able to change my own world would be huge!!! There are so many things that I would like to change... but alas I am only a mere human and I cannot change everything. When I become frustrated with not being able to change things the way I wish, I must remember that God is in control and He knows what He is doing. As I am writing this I am reminded of the first part of the serenity prayer: God grant me the Serenity/ to accept the things I cannot change/courage to change the things I can/and wisdom to know the difference.... This is such an amazing prayer!!! I do need serenity to accept that I cannot change everything. I need courage to change some things, actually, many things :) and wisdom to know what I should and shouldn't try to change would be amazing! The God I serve is an awesome God. I love Him, but to often I try to take His place by ruling my world, when it is really His world. So, I am going to change the world! Just by living I am changing some part of someones world. Hopefully the changes I make are for good. I know that I am not perfect, in fact I am very far from it, but I do hope that in all that I do I glorify Christ! 


(P.S. School is over for this semester!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

ya

Well, I finished this semester of school!!! :) YAY!!! Unfortunately summer school starts in 2 weeks :P
My life has been CRAZY as of late. So much stuff going on. I have been put to tests spiritually, emotionally, and physically and they  haven't been easy. I cannot complain for God has given me sooo much! He has blessed me abundantly. Too often I let things get to me. They start taking away my joy and robbing me of the happiness that God has for me. I am not perfect and those around me are not perfect. I lose my joy in Christ and just in life when my world is turned upside down. People can be deceptive, malicious, depressed...etc... and they can let you down. The choices of the ones you love can often effect you in ways that no one would imagine.... They can hurt you and put you down, but they are not usually all bad. They can love you, teach you, guide you....  I need to strive to not let the world effect me in such ways. I need to keep my eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of my faith. He loves me so much more than I can even comprehend and He has plans for me.

Happy Mothers Day to everyone!!! :)

Sand shifts

The line has been drawn in the sand, the door opened. It is not so dramatic that a fate has been sealed, but still, some decisions you know can change you, and most likely will change you and the way you end up. There are times when a decision has to be made no matter how much it hurts..... But either way I know it should end well because I have a promise. God promises that He has plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans for hope and a future What would I do without God's promises and love??? :) Amazing!!!
Anywhoo.... I know my posts have been a bit more serious as of late so I am going to try and lighten up a bit :) I can't think of any jokes, so instead I will tell you all some ideas I have for pets names and hope you think they are as amusing as I do :). Okay, so the first one for a pug dog would be pugnacious :D The second would be Matic (as in dogmatic) :D And for a bunny hoppinero (like habanero, just fluffier :D )

Rise up

It breaks my heart to read, hear, and discuss the ways some people have fallen. There is a particular thing (I am not going to say what it is) that keeps popping into my life. First a man that was like a dad to me, then a family members, then a good friend. This thing is like a disease. All those I know who have been infected with it cannot seem to stop. It just breaks my heart and makes me want to scream and cry when I see the thing that has brought them low. This thing seems to hurt everyone it touches. It is uncaring and unfeeling. It leaves those who mess with it craving more yet knowing that more will not satisfy them. These people I love are being devoured. Some of them are fighting, and fighting hard against it, but they slip every now and then. I do not blame them for everyone has something that they do that they wish they didn't. This thing though, I wish I could kill it. To stop all the injustices it causes. To keep people from falling prey to it. Rise up people and pray that God will deliver this nation from her sins. Rise up against sin!
This is a bit different post than I typically do, but I really am broken hearted tonight as I discover what more this thing has taken from me. This monster is a raging volcano that cannot seem to be quenched. It is destroying lives. It has taken away happiness, it had brought good people down very low. This disease must be stopped! Pray for those who are infected, that they will find their cure in Christ and that the monster they are facing will have no appeal to them. Rise up and pray that those who have fallen will rise up themselves and take a stand against this monster. Rise up and fight people!!!!!!

AGH!!! kinda random....

I don't really know what I want to write about tonight. I just know I want to write something!
Well, Easter is almost upon us. YAY! I love Easter. It is such an inspiring time for me for some reason....
I think one of my problems right now is that I want to do to much. Lately I have learned that I have a REALLY hard time saying the word "no" when someone asks me to do something. It is so frustrating. I want to do everything, I feel I can always squeeze in a little bit more here or there! I stretch myself a little too thin sometimes though.... Then I do it again! When someone needs me for something I can't bear to tell them "no" unless it is something I REALLY don't want to do, but I usually say yes to doing those things anyway.. :) I guess I am a sucker for things like that. Though I do start my own projects, some of which turn out being pretty big. I love to volunteer for anything and everything. I love friends, parties, movies, hanging out, reading, shopping, animals, designing, art, flowers, drawing, painting, good causes, baking, cooking...etc... I just love people and I try my hardest to help everyone in most every way I can. There are worse addictions, but I do need to remind myself that no one will kill me if I actually say "no, I am sorry, but I can't".  So much for not knowing what to write about, huh? :)
Have a blessed Easter everyone!!! Remember that it is Christ that whose sacrifice should be remembered during this time! :)
http://www.godtube.com/watch/?v=992EBJNU
This link is to a song I wrote about a year ago... Nothing special about what I wrote, but I have had it stuck in my head lately and what Christ did for me is such an amazing thing! <3

Well...

Well, I am at the end of my Spring semester for this year!!! YAY!!! Classes this semester went pretty well. I made some really good friends. This semester was different though, and in some respects I cannot wait for it to be over! It has been good, yet frustrating, fun yet boring,  exciting yet creepy.... I am still deciding what to think of this semester. I couldn't imagine not being friends with some of the people I am friends with now, but there were some difficult things this semester that I am hoping will be over come the next semester.
Pray that I finish this semester strong and continue to show Christ!
Thank you! And thank you to all of you who prayed me through this semester!

Friends ^_^

Friends are such amazing things. There are so many definitions of friends... There are people I am still getting to know,but I love em and they make me laugh! There are people who I see at school all the time, and we are able to help each other out side of the class room with stuff in the classroom. There are people who are always building me up and encouraging me. There are those I laugh with and those I have cried with. There are so many people that have touched my life or helped me in some way whether it be big or small. There are also those friends that I cannot live without (though if any of my different friends were to disappear I would be VERY unhappy!), the ones that are there for me ALL the time!!!! They love me no matter what, and put up with all of me! I can tell them anything and they will help me to the very best of their ability. Friends truly are a gift from God and I thank Him for all of you!!! :)

Gluten :P

Hey All!
Please be praying for me! I REALLY need to get off of all gluten/wheat stuff, but it is really hard! I love my breads, cakes, cookies.... And yes all that stuff can be made with gluten free stuff, but it doesn't taste the same... So please be praying that I can actually stick to staying off of it!!!! :) Thank you! <3

Be still song...

Hey All! I wrote another song, and input on it would be appreciated! Thanks! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSuzXIcYRmI

Thank you!!! :)

Be still

Be still and know that I am God
Such a simple command, right?? WRONG! At least for me anyway.... I find it so hard sometimes to just KNOW that He is God, and what His being God incorporates. I can't quiet explain, but it is such an amazing thing to be still and KNOW that He IS God! Over the last few weeks, and especially today God has shown me just how amazing and BIG He truly is! He just blows my mind away! He used something incredibly hard to show me something truly amazing. I don't even know what else to say!
Thank you all who have been praying for me! I needed it! Love ya'll!

Waiting.,....

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

~John Waller~~ While I'm Waiting.....


Waiting can be such a hard thing....

On a more positive note

God knows just when you need things!!!! :) Today He did some pretty cool stuff, and it just reminded me of His great loved for me! I to often forget how much He does love me.. What an awesome God we serve! He gave me my daily bread along with the butter and jam! :D To quote a lyric from FM Static -I'm not an idiot, but I fee like one a lot!- How stupid can I be with such an awesome God?? :)

Life as I know it...

Life is such a weird thing....
Sometimes life really just seems to suck, but you need to look on the bright side. There is ALWAYS something in which to praise the Lord for. There are so many things going on, and sometimes I seem to get caught in a rut of not looking at what God is doing, and just looking at the pieces of my life around me. I neglect to look at what He is building out of the rubble. He is going to make something even better, and I need to look at the builder, and not the building! If any of you actually read this please pray for me! Satan can do a pretty good job of blinding me to the good....

2011

A new year!!!! But the year is one of many things that is new so far for me....
So far all of my classes are off to a good start! I am taking 5 classes.
1) Sociology, so far interesting, and the teacher seems pretty nice, and fair.
2) History!!! LOVE IT!! Same teacher as last semester, just different class. He is an amazing teacher!!
3) Modern Music Appreciation... the title is very misleading!!! Basically we just listen to music and learn some about music theory... The teacher is a little quircky, but nice. :)
4) English II... so far very interesting.... my teacher is a burly German woman, whose name, and personality are interesting... I am not quiet sure what to think of her yet, but she seems kinds :)
5) Math for Teachers II and I do believe the last math I ever have to take!!! ^_^ A good friend that I made last semester is in the same class, so we went together. Our teacher is this really nice hippy lady... she seems to be very fair, but does require that you do the work :)
There is soooo much that could be said!!!!! But alas it is late and I should be going to bed :P Welcome 2011!

WOW!!!!

God has been doing some pretty much AMAZING things in my life as of recently!!! He has showed me sooo much and blessed me beyond belief!!! I am overwhelmed at everything!!!
Please continue to pray though! School is starting on Monday!!!! My second semester! Pray that I would be able to stand firmly in my faith!
That I would be able to witness to those around me!
Do well so as not to shame my Lord!
Have a good spirit even when I get worms in my apples :)
WOW!!!! :D