It has only been a couple of weeks since I last posted, but man, it seems like FOREVER!!!! My life is sooo busy crazy.
Yesterday when I was meeting with me mentor (someone much wiser than I :) ) she and I were talking and I was telling her some of what has been going on in my life and she said that things sound like they are pretty crazy for me, but then she asked "Hannah, are you content in where you are?" She made me think for a moment, but then I could honestly answer yes, that I am content. Life is full of ups and downs, and at times it seems like the downs outnumber the ups, but I know that God has plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans for hope and a future. I have struggled before in being content, wondering what contentment really is, and if it is even possible to find while we are here on this earth, but I have discovered that it is possible, and not just for a moment when everything is right. My life isn't horrible, but according to human standards very little in my life has gone "right" as of late.... God has shown me through all of this what it really is to be content. My soul is at rest in Him. For me that is contentment. I have felt it before, but I haven't realized what it really was. My life is on a roller coaster, but I am resting in Him. I KNOW that He loves me. I KNOW that no matter what He is ALWAYS going to be there for me. I KNOW that I will spend eternity with Him. I KNOW that He knows better than I do what is good for me and my life. I can see Him in so many ways. A few times people have asked me why I still smile when things get so rough in my life, and I usually answer with something like " there isn't anything else to do". God has blessed me in so many ways that when things get rough I remember what He has done for me, what He has brought me through and I have to smile knowing that He has plans for me. He love me sooo much! I wish I could convey with words all that my Savior does for me, but words cannot suffice.....
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
"A Woman's Question" by Lena Lathrop
I found this poem in "I Kissed Dating Goodbye"by Joshua Harris and I thought some of you might enjoy it. AMAZING book btw!!!!
Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy.
You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's sould
Until I shall question thee.
You require mutton shall always be hot,
You socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart by true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.
You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you're wanting for sicks and shirts--
I look for a man and a king.
A king for the beautfil realm called Home,
And a man that his Maker, God,
Shall look upon as He did on the first
And say: "It is very good."
I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheek one day;
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?
Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven of hell
On the day she is made a bride.
I require all things that are grand and true,
ALl things that a man should be;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.
If you cannot be this, a laundress and a cook
You can hire and little to pay;
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.
Yes, there are things that we females need to work on too, but guys, read this and look at a woman as a treasure to be won. Not something to be used. Win a girl by knowing what is past her face. If you can tell her what you love about her soul, her heart, her brain, then she will be yours. If you just comment on the outside then she will know what your heart is after. Yes, tell her she is beautiful, but tell her what makes her beautiful from the inside out. This is not as easy of a task as telling a girl she is pretty, but spending a life time with someone is not easy. Tell her instead what you hope to still see when she is fifty...
Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy.
You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's sould
Until I shall question thee.
You require mutton shall always be hot,
You socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart by true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.
You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you're wanting for sicks and shirts--
I look for a man and a king.
A king for the beautfil realm called Home,
And a man that his Maker, God,
Shall look upon as He did on the first
And say: "It is very good."
I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheek one day;
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?
Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven of hell
On the day she is made a bride.
I require all things that are grand and true,
ALl things that a man should be;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.
If you cannot be this, a laundress and a cook
You can hire and little to pay;
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.
Yes, there are things that we females need to work on too, but guys, read this and look at a woman as a treasure to be won. Not something to be used. Win a girl by knowing what is past her face. If you can tell her what you love about her soul, her heart, her brain, then she will be yours. If you just comment on the outside then she will know what your heart is after. Yes, tell her she is beautiful, but tell her what makes her beautiful from the inside out. This is not as easy of a task as telling a girl she is pretty, but spending a life time with someone is not easy. Tell her instead what you hope to still see when she is fifty...
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Biologie, pourquoi ne pas vous voir?
Biology, why can't you see??
So, why am I talking about Biology?? (btw the title is in French) Well, for my degree I have to take some Natural Science classes. This semester I am taking two, and one of them happens to be Biology. I am reading the text book right now and I am just amazed (not necessarily in a good way). This text book is biased towards evolution ( big surprise there). Anyway, I was reading along and it is going into how things are a bajillion and one years old, but then it said "close examination of a flower reveals that the parts are far from randomly organized." How does that work??? If everything just exploded then how can they say that something is "far from randomly organized." (In case you haven't already noticed I am on a soap box right now). Then they have the.. audacity to say that DNA are "blueprints" for organisms. If there are blueprints then someone made them right? The last set of blueprints I looked at didn't just evolve in front of me. It took an *intelligent being* to create it. So evolution scientists are saying that everything exploded, yet it all seems to have a plan and a purpose? It astounds me how people think. Evolution doesn't even make sense! There are as many ways of looking at evolution as there are years in evolution, but here is something interesting I have thought about. So, suppose everything did just *randomly* explode into earth. Then humans (or whatever we were then) started coming out of the primeval ooze. These creatures would have to evolve at approximately the same rate and they would have to be sexually compatible in order to reproduce and further evolve! I personally think that believing evolution is harder than believing that God made the world. Even the scientists who are against creationism are saying that things appear as though they didn't just "randomly" come into being. The book of Romans comes to mind right now. If you don't know what it says, then go and read it! :)
My fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, please be praying for me as I may have to choose my battles in these science classes (specifically biology). That I may honor God through the choices that I make and that I would stand strong and have the wisdom to respond about, and defend my faith. Thank you all! :)
So, why am I talking about Biology?? (btw the title is in French) Well, for my degree I have to take some Natural Science classes. This semester I am taking two, and one of them happens to be Biology. I am reading the text book right now and I am just amazed (not necessarily in a good way). This text book is biased towards evolution ( big surprise there). Anyway, I was reading along and it is going into how things are a bajillion and one years old, but then it said "close examination of a flower reveals that the parts are far from randomly organized." How does that work??? If everything just exploded then how can they say that something is "far from randomly organized." (In case you haven't already noticed I am on a soap box right now). Then they have the.. audacity to say that DNA are "blueprints" for organisms. If there are blueprints then someone made them right? The last set of blueprints I looked at didn't just evolve in front of me. It took an *intelligent being* to create it. So evolution scientists are saying that everything exploded, yet it all seems to have a plan and a purpose? It astounds me how people think. Evolution doesn't even make sense! There are as many ways of looking at evolution as there are years in evolution, but here is something interesting I have thought about. So, suppose everything did just *randomly* explode into earth. Then humans (or whatever we were then) started coming out of the primeval ooze. These creatures would have to evolve at approximately the same rate and they would have to be sexually compatible in order to reproduce and further evolve! I personally think that believing evolution is harder than believing that God made the world. Even the scientists who are against creationism are saying that things appear as though they didn't just "randomly" come into being. The book of Romans comes to mind right now. If you don't know what it says, then go and read it! :)
My fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, please be praying for me as I may have to choose my battles in these science classes (specifically biology). That I may honor God through the choices that I make and that I would stand strong and have the wisdom to respond about, and defend my faith. Thank you all! :)
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
A box of memories
Everyone has memories
Some are happy,
Some are sad.
Some we never wish to remember.
There are those we wish we could live over and over again.
Yet, there are some
that belong in a box.
There they can be put aside.
Perhaps brought out later and gone over,
but in that box they are out of sight,
out of mind,
but though we may be able to put memorabilia in a box
memories can never be contained.
They can be put under lock
under key,
but never contained.
They creep out when you least expect them.
Haunting.
That box of memories.
Things you cannot part with,
yet can't bear to look at.
Memories belong in boxes.
These boxes have locks,
they have keys.
These boxes are the only things that can truly hold memories.
Heart and mind
the only real memory keepers of any kind.
Another random attempt at writing that popped into my head during my science class :)
Some are happy,
Some are sad.
Some we never wish to remember.
There are those we wish we could live over and over again.
Yet, there are some
that belong in a box.
There they can be put aside.
Perhaps brought out later and gone over,
but in that box they are out of sight,
out of mind,
but though we may be able to put memorabilia in a box
memories can never be contained.
They can be put under lock
under key,
but never contained.
They creep out when you least expect them.
Haunting.
That box of memories.
Things you cannot part with,
yet can't bear to look at.
Memories belong in boxes.
These boxes have locks,
they have keys.
These boxes are the only things that can truly hold memories.
Heart and mind
the only real memory keepers of any kind.
Another random attempt at writing that popped into my head during my science class :)
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
A random attepmt at writing....
She faked a smile and laughed
Sure that no one around her could guess
how she was really doing behind that smile.
She had just lost something very precious.
This thing she did not own,
yet she none the less possessed.
At one time she knew it was hers
She didn't have to feign a smile.
But like a flower
her real smile soon faded
for that thing which she had once possessed had faded out of her life.
The fading was slow, but it was also sure.
How fast it did fade.
She didn't expect it
Didn't want it to go away
Yet she continued to feign her smile as it slipped even farther away
taking part of her with it.
All of a sudden she realized it really was gone,
still there,
but no longer possessed by her.
She did not know who possessed it
if anyone,
but it was gone
and she continued to smile on the outside
while on the inside she felt confused and lost.
Like a flower without a vase.
Sure that no one around her could guess
how she was really doing behind that smile.
She had just lost something very precious.
This thing she did not own,
yet she none the less possessed.
At one time she knew it was hers
She didn't have to feign a smile.
But like a flower
her real smile soon faded
for that thing which she had once possessed had faded out of her life.
The fading was slow, but it was also sure.
How fast it did fade.
She didn't expect it
Didn't want it to go away
Yet she continued to feign her smile as it slipped even farther away
taking part of her with it.
All of a sudden she realized it really was gone,
still there,
but no longer possessed by her.
She did not know who possessed it
if anyone,
but it was gone
and she continued to smile on the outside
while on the inside she felt confused and lost.
Like a flower without a vase.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Changing the World
Don't we all wish at one time or another that we could change the world??? I know that I do! Just to be able to change my own world would be huge!!! There are so many things that I would like to change... but alas I am only a mere human and I cannot change everything. When I become frustrated with not being able to change things the way I wish, I must remember that God is in control and He knows what He is doing. As I am writing this I am reminded of the first part of the serenity prayer: God grant me the Serenity/ to accept the things I cannot change/courage to change the things I can/and wisdom to know the difference.... This is such an amazing prayer!!! I do need serenity to accept that I cannot change everything. I need courage to change some things, actually, many things :) and wisdom to know what I should and shouldn't try to change would be amazing! The God I serve is an awesome God. I love Him, but to often I try to take His place by ruling my world, when it is really His world. So, I am going to change the world! Just by living I am changing some part of someones world. Hopefully the changes I make are for good. I know that I am not perfect, in fact I am very far from it, but I do hope that in all that I do I glorify Christ!
(P.S. School is over for this semester!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
(P.S. School is over for this semester!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Sunday, May 8, 2011
ya
Well, I finished this semester of school!!! :) YAY!!! Unfortunately summer school starts in 2 weeks :P
My life has been CRAZY as of late. So much stuff going on. I have been put to tests spiritually, emotionally, and physically and they haven't been easy. I cannot complain for God has given me sooo much! He has blessed me abundantly. Too often I let things get to me. They start taking away my joy and robbing me of the happiness that God has for me. I am not perfect and those around me are not perfect. I lose my joy in Christ and just in life when my world is turned upside down. People can be deceptive, malicious, depressed...etc... and they can let you down. The choices of the ones you love can often effect you in ways that no one would imagine.... They can hurt you and put you down, but they are not usually all bad. They can love you, teach you, guide you.... I need to strive to not let the world effect me in such ways. I need to keep my eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of my faith. He loves me so much more than I can even comprehend and He has plans for me.
Happy Mothers Day to everyone!!! :)
My life has been CRAZY as of late. So much stuff going on. I have been put to tests spiritually, emotionally, and physically and they haven't been easy. I cannot complain for God has given me sooo much! He has blessed me abundantly. Too often I let things get to me. They start taking away my joy and robbing me of the happiness that God has for me. I am not perfect and those around me are not perfect. I lose my joy in Christ and just in life when my world is turned upside down. People can be deceptive, malicious, depressed...etc... and they can let you down. The choices of the ones you love can often effect you in ways that no one would imagine.... They can hurt you and put you down, but they are not usually all bad. They can love you, teach you, guide you.... I need to strive to not let the world effect me in such ways. I need to keep my eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of my faith. He loves me so much more than I can even comprehend and He has plans for me.
Happy Mothers Day to everyone!!! :)
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