I DIDN'T DO IT!!!

Based off of my title you are probably thinking that I am about to admit to a terrible crime, but that is not the case! :) I simply wanted to grab your attention and tell you about something I have learned this past semester. So, I did not do it, well, I did, but then it didn't turn out and then He did.... Sort of long story, but I will shorten it by a few months! Basically at the beginning of this year there were some really exciting opportunities coming up and I had prayed about them and I thought that they were for me. I however did not end up in these things that I was so excited about. I was disappointed, but I knew that God always has a plan, and even though I was not necessarily happy with what He had decided I also knew that He had never let me down before and that no matter what happens everything has worked out. Well, I still am not really sure why those doors closed, but God brought along some amazing opportunities. This fall I am going to be at a school that I had only dreamed of getting to teach at and certainly never thought that these dreams would  come to anything. They were just that, dreams, and yet God brought this opportunity to me and laid it in my lap. I did not have to do a thing!

 Now back to the "I didn't do it" part. The doors that closed for me were things that I had been trying to do out of my own merit. Things that I worked for and I thought I could achieve on my own failed (miserably...) yet the things that I have really been blessed with this past semester are the things that God brought to me. The things that I had nothing to do with. I am amazed that after everything that I mess up on He still blesses me with such amazing opportunities, and yet I still complain when I find out I have some summer courses to take :P :) There are so many things I try to do on my own merit, but what I especially needed to see again is that it doesn't matter what I do it matters what He did for me. 

Thank you to those of you who read my mutterings! I really appreciate it! :) 

253 days

So so so sorry that I haven't written in ages!!!! Being a college kid means being incredibly busy! Still I need to make more time to write! It is amazing what a few short months can change! I have 253 days till graduation!!! I am completely amazed at this! I was fresh out of high school such a short time ago and now I almost have my degree! I still remember sitting in my first college class rather terrified, and now I am sure to walk into class and say 'meh, I've got this.' I am amazed not only at how much has happened but how much I have grown (and not in height I am still only 5"7..). I used to pay that teachers wouldn't call on me! This wasn't because I didn't know the answers, buy rather because I was so incredibly shy. I have always been outgoing in small settings, but being in as large classroom where what you assay and do determines your grade I was not so find if at first. I could go on and on and on with everything that had changed in me since becoming a college student, but I will save that for my autobiography ;) I must say though that another thing that really amazes me is the number of people who follow me on here! I do not have a whole lot of time to blog and usually my posts are some random thought, but thank you to everything so has been reading! I greatly appreciate it and it gives me a good reason to keep writing.
I could not help but end this post with a humorous story! So here you go! :)
My for great old sister was in the car with me the other day when she asks me if it is true that 'girl mantises east boy mantises.I had to tell her that sadly it is true. She then says 'mantis, from kung fu panda says that he wants to settle down, like with a group, but H Hannah, I just don't think that that is a good idea at all!!!, she was so incredibly ernest that I felt bad laughing, but her concern for mantis was very touching. Probably a story told best in person, but humorous none the less!
Have a blessed April, though hopefully I will write again before. Then!

Unedited,
Hannah :)